goCrazy

Sudden urge to explain

Mon, 13 Aug 2007 03:24:06 GMT

I was looking through my old entries here and I probably posted here just to vent since probably most of my entries were pretty negative. (Usually about the stress of University). However, that was years ago and now I have already graduated and working. So please don't think that I'm an over negative person. (Not that I could stop you)

Although, it seems kind of silly to explain myself, since probably no one will read this and I don't/won't even write in this space anymore. I just feel this need to write this now, after I read through my entries. Ah well, that's how I live my life.

karma?

Sat, 02 Oct 2004 07:10:55 GMT

I believe in karma. I was winning at FNM with my pretty fantastic draft deck if I do say so myself. Got up to the finals, but I ended up losing and getting 2nd. I win some packs and open them and 98% of those cards are crap. sigh... karma.

good karma = getting up to FNM finals because I stayed up all night doing my philosophy essay on true goodness

bad karma = getting 2nd and winning super super crappy packs because of not getting any other real work done the rest of the week (ahem, work term report now late 2 weeks in counting... sigh)

aside: mika nakashima is so damn hot. I say this because the LEGEND PV rocks! Although some of her previouis PVs were much hotter, nonetheless, the hotness is still there. LOL!

I gotta sleep, watching a play downtown, it's called Banana Boys, it's about asian-canadians I think. should be alright.

No Soul

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 13:15:46 GMT

It's like I have no soul. Or more correctly I've lost it. What happened to me? Things weren't like this before, why is it like this now?

I'm dying... but aren't we all?

you know what?

Wed, 22 Sep 2004 05:34:31 GMT

It's mid-week, it's almost over...

ipod owner!

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 00:49:36 GMT

who's the new owner of a 20GB 4th Gen Ipod!? "YO!" (points to self a la Futurama, if you know how it goes)

I also have 15 dollars in quarters!

Let the good times roll!

about an hour

Tue, 27 Apr 2004 11:45:43 GMT

I am going to KILL CSCB09! (hopefully)

I'm not like very very confident... but I think I'll pass. Yes, I'll pass, definitely. errr... let me pass please! (So much for confidence)

I'll be free or dead in 4 hours.

give up...

Tue, 27 Apr 2004 04:18:45 GMT

I want to give up... but I can't... I am caught in between... I feel totally horrible...

one more, hopefully

Tue, 27 Apr 2004 02:30:41 GMT

I died on cscb63, god it was so damn hard it wasn't funny. I didn't answer 35 marks worth of questions... I only only hope that I passed... hopefully some belling up will be used. hopefully.
philosophy was alright, hopefully I got at least a 70. hopefully

cscb09 tommorow morning, last one... it's not the hardest one out of all, but I'm still a little scared. there's so much information to absorb. hopefully I can do it... hopefully

I need to pass... hopefully.

Mon, 26 Apr 2004 01:32:19 GMT

almost lost my internet connection... which would've been a little bad.

but things are already to the point of desperation... I'm so scared... I might fail... I really don't know how things are going to go... it's going to be so hard... it's so bad right now...

panic kicks me in the head

Sun, 25 Apr 2004 03:22:17 GMT

Oh man... panic just kicked in.

I am so fucked it's not funny... this has been the worst exam period ever and I am going to die so bad... I don't have enough time... not anymore... oh man... fuck fuck fuck.

don't go there

Sat, 24 Apr 2004 22:09:16 GMT

no point in having regrets, because everything you do is what you have decided, so just deal with it and if you die then you die.

loving the c/w song on the new fake? single, praise. It's classic, coincidently that's also the name of the song.

fake? new album out 6.23.04! Can't wait!

calc calc calc

Thu, 22 Apr 2004 02:50:56 GMT

calc exam tommorow and I don't feel very prepared or confident. I really don't know how things will turn out. It's not like I don't know how to do the stuff, it's just that I'm afraid that when the exam comes around, I'll be blank as a piece of white, um blank paper. Hope that doesn't happen.

Anyways, Angel rocked. Conner is back! Well, maybe just for one episode. It was a pretty cool episode too. I feel sorry for Gunn, damn, hope he gets free.

eee... it's getting closer!

wonder?

Wed, 21 Apr 2004 05:21:12 GMT

The standard complaining about how I'm scared and how I haven't been studying for my exams kind of entry.

sometimes I wonder when I'll change in this way. I definitely welcome it.

when you think about it, April is practically over and May is just around the corner. I'm looking forward to it. I have my job to look forward to and also my birthday, although usually birthdays aren't that high up on my list (my list of whatevers... I don't know)

But, if you can't think of gifts, two words. ICQ Info! Hehe and of course there's the Electric Blue White Striped Mini Cooper. And a Green IPod Mini.

Gotta live through exams first.

radio update

Thu, 15 Apr 2004 16:26:09 GMT

added a few more songs

some

emi hinouchi (you gotta hear show me what you got just for that one line "save the drama for your mama", hi-larious!)
crystal kay

and also the new fake? single, praise! And I definitely praise it! (grr, lame)

hero radio!

Wed, 14 Apr 2004 04:30:04 GMT

I had to get a radio like Charz! Now I have cool songs to share again! Woot!

hero radio! GO!

also, the main page is updated and that's all there is... sigh it would be surprising if I ever finish things.

Exams... god when will I start studying... I really need to get on track tommorow.

hyperdot down!

Sun, 11 Apr 2004 06:31:14 GMT

So I guess I'm back here for a while. We renewed hyperdot, but it seems to be gone for the moment, hope it's back up soon. I was working on a new layout and if it's not back up soon, not sure if I'll even put it up. lol.

Anyways, got a haircut today finally! I like it so far, I feel more comfortable with short hair.

Went to see Hellboy with Bowie and her cousins. It was a good night. Had a Toffee Nut Latte at Starbucks. Good stuff.

No plans for tommorow as of yet. Maybe breakfast tommorow. Haven't went out for breakfast on a Sunday in like forever. Haven't went out on a Sunday for a long time period.

New Alias tommorow! Woot! Then I gotta start studying this week. Sigh... I need to get into the mood!

I'm starting to get more and more excited about that job at Honda!

wallpapers, spreading the wealth!

Thu, 25 Mar 2004 06:19:03 GMT

Made some Samurai Champloo wallpapers. Enjoy! XD

wish I was home

Tue, 17 Feb 2004 17:05:35 GMT

Had to come to school early in the morning, stuck here waiting for my mom to drive me home... I'm fucking bored out of my mind. I could do some work... but really I don't even want to touch anything of the sort.

Plus, I'm damn hungry... I want to fucking go home.

tuesday already

Tue, 17 Feb 2004 05:52:30 GMT

Man, Monday just went by like that... what the hell!

Interview was alright, didn't feel too bad about it, but of course lots of room to improve. Next time, next time...

Hardly did much, played a lot of GB that's for sure. Too much.

I was hoping to do something for hyperdot/eric, but as usual nothing happened.

Gotta go to school tommorow to submit another job application... sigh so damn bothersome. I guess I'll try and get some much needed work done... sigh.

Mon, 16 Feb 2004 06:03:19 GMT

Can't believe it's Monday. My Saturday disappeared because of midterms and trust me when I say you go a little crazy after staying at school for 12 hours just because you have 2 midterms that are 8 hours apart.

Sunday was gone just as fast... I guess cause I woke up pretty late. Had dim sum with family and just went home to play some gunbound. Then it was time to go to badminton.

Ate dinner when I got home and watched my recorded episode of The Simpsons and Alias.

Speaking of Alias, goddammit why do I have to wait 3 weeks to see the next new episode... I want it now... well next Sunday! If you saw the preview for next new episode you would have been just like me. Sloane = Sydney's Father WHAT!!? God man I can't wait to see what happens.

I have an interview early tommorow morning... at this moment I'm kinda dreading it... I guess I'm just nervous... hope it goes well and I don't mess up.

Also, I want a girlfriend... or should I say I need one. Sigh... I'm so pathetic... yeah.

midterms...die

Sat, 14 Feb 2004 11:26:42 GMT

Oh man, I am so not ready for the 9:00 b42 midterm.

I have like basically an hour left to study, because gotta do the normal morning stuff, have some breakfast and drive there.

God... please let me do alright.

other than the previous

Sat, 14 Feb 2004 03:41:19 GMT

I actually really really like what I wrote last entry... it truly represents how I feel and how I think.

Watson Wyatt interview went quite smoothly. Ironically it took me almost 2 hours to get there and the interview was like 15 minutes. It was a friendly and comfortable interview, I enjoyed that experience. Walked by Elgin Theatre where Conan O'Brien has been for almost the whole week. Tons of people were lining up for what I guess to be today's show.

Took a look in Urban Outfitters. Couldn't find that nice jacket I liked. Was disappointed.

Had a run through Eaton Centre and ended up leaving with a Chocolate Brownie Frap.

I like riding the subway from time to time, it's fun to observe people. But I definitely would get tired (not to mention the $$$) of doing that 5 days a week... of course if I get the job, I wouldn't mind! XD

Stayed at STC a while, got McDonalds. Changed clothes in the backseat of my car, and I must say it's quite a challenge. Headed back to school to do some studying.

Came home, watched some TV and ate. And now I should be studying. Yep, I should be.

Quite an eventful day if I do say so myself. If you read up to here, you deserve a gold star. (And to those who just skip to the end, boo-urns on you.)

valentine bug

Sat, 14 Feb 2004 03:26:26 GMT

I think I feel different about Valentine's Day this year when compared to past years. I never really though much of it since I've never had someone to share it with and the years just go by like that, it was just another day in February.

Maybe it's because it's been such a long time since I've liked anyone (well, someone different) I just wish I could do all (well, maybe not all, but some) the things people do on Valentine's Day.

I would love to give a girl flowers and see the surprised and hopefully happy look on her face. I would love to go see a nice movie full of romance and comedy. And while we were driving there, soft and beautiful ballads would be playing in the background.

It would be snowing or raining lightly, so that everything looks fresh and new. While we walked she would have her arm wrapped around mine and we would talk, smile and laugh.

Not this year I guess, maybe next year? maybe...

final 2

Fri, 13 Feb 2004 06:57:54 GMT

2 more days of this hell week... not that after will be any better.

It's going to be a really hard and long 2 days. I'll make it... but will I make it out alright... it's really hard to say.

I just hope my interview goes alright tommorow, I study enough for b42 and on Saturday b42 won't be that hard (unlikely) and b09 won't be too hard too, becuase I'll be studying that after b42 exam... 6 hours of studying... wonder if that'll be enough.

give me strength... please.

dreaded b63

Fri, 13 Feb 2004 04:23:27 GMT

It's horrible, it's so horrible!

Got damn it, I just don't get it. Damn stupid 2-3-4 Trees! I'm not sure if I'm deleting correctly, cause the way I see it there's big problems.

fuck fuck fuck... this is definately worst than anything else... plus I have so much to worry about tommorow...

god damn it...